Some days are hard, for many reasons. School, family, friends, relationships - they all have challenges. When one thing goes awry, it’s hard to do other things well too. Maybe I’m not meant to be where I am. Maybe that’s why my self-esteem has been so low lately. I feel lonely, left out, dumb, I can’t seem to get done all that I want to get done. Thinking about certain people I don’t see anymore makes me so, so sad. You can’t replace people. But you can’t change the fact that they’ve chosen not to be in your life. I have tried to fill the void and it sometimes works, but eventually it comes back.
I will keep searching for a way out, until one day I find where I belong. I started this journey not really knowing where I was going, only knowing I had to make it somewhere. I don’t know what I need to change. But I know I need to change something.
I don’t know who reads this. It doesn’t matter. We all have struggles.